Emma and Emily 🏳️⚧️<p>Came down with a bug last week and only started to feel human yesterday, so I thought a run would help shift the last of it. Did my longest run so far, I literally ran until my legs turned to jelly and I went dizzy. I ended up lay on the floor trying to overcome a panic attack as I couldn’t breathe or see properly but despite that a coastal run blew away the cobwebs and made me feel like I had achieved something. <br>It was a quiet run and there was hardly anyone about, which is very much my kind of run. Pushing myself and getting out of my comfort zone is getting out there for a run or hike but right now it has to be somewhere quiet with very few people about as groups of strangers still sends my mental health spiralling and causes my PTSD to go worse and also triggers more flashbacks than I usually deal with, so it’s too much for me right now. I’m great with groups of people I know and feel safe with I’m just not there yet to push myself further but I will get there. Planning ahead really helps but I still can’t plan for everything and some things slip through the cracks. This time it was becoming dehydrated as I don’t have a running vest to carry fluids while I run yet. This is something I’m going to have to move up my priority list if I want to do another long run, so I will get saving for one. <br>Proud of myself for continuing to push my boundaries by trying somewhere new to run and giving it everything I had in the tank. My body and mind will get stronger and I know it is going to be a long journey. I am working very hard on accepting that recovery is going to take time but as long as I keep trying I will eventually get there. <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/mentalhealth" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>mentalhealth</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/mentalhealthrecovery" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>mentalhealthrecovery</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/mentalhealthawareness" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>mentalhealthawareness</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/ptsd" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ptsd</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/ptsdrecovery" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>ptsdrecovery</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/complextrauma" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>complextrauma</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/running" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>running</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/runningmotivation" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>runningmotivation</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/coastalrun" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>coastalrun</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/runningrecovery" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>runningrecovery</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/freshair" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>freshair</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/pushyourlimits" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>pushyourlimits</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/keepgoing" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>keepgoing</span></a> <a href="https://cultofshiv.wtf/tags/tryingmybest" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener noreferrer" target="_blank">#<span>tryingmybest</span></a></p>